This might sound stupid to some of you. You might think that this isn't that big of a deal, but my biggest weakness is Dr.Pepper! I love it!!! I really don't think I can live without it. Besides the 9 months I was pregnant I don't know of a time that I didn't drink it. The only reason that I didn't drink it at all when I was preggo was because I would throw up every time I drank anything carbonated. It was a good thing though and I was glad I wasn't drinking it. I told my self that I wouldn't ever start drinking it after I had the baby. We would have pizza and Brennan would get his soda, and I would have to get water. REALLY??? People are not suppose to drink water with pizza. It should be a rule! There are certain foods that should require you to drink soda when you eat them. The problem for me is I would rather drink my Dr. Pepper then even eat food! It is that serious. So obviously after having Payton, Dr. Pepper was back in my life. I wake up wanting it. I have a strict rule that I follow of no soda until 10:00am. After that you can be sure that I will have my favorite drink in hand.
I know that it is full of sugar and caffeine and its not good for you. I am sure that if I didn't drink it I could weight 100lbs, have better skin, and feel better. I rationalize that it is all I have. I don't drink coffee, alcohol, or tea. I am not a fan of milk YUCK, and water is just so boring. Trust me I really want to like water. I try and try, but it just doesn't do it for me.
So why is it a big deal that I am drinking Dr. Pepper? Well Brennan and I have been trying to get pregnant and it just isn't happening for us. It took me almost 2 1/2 years to get pregnant with Payton, but I don't feel like we were really "trying" like your suppose to. I quit birth control and that was it. It happened when it did. After having Payton I decided it was the birth control that made by body take so long to get pregnant, so I decided I was not going to go back on it. Well Payton turned 2 in August and still no other baby. The Dr told me last January at my annual check up that I have secondary infertility, and that there are things I can do to help me get pregnant. I told him I would think about it and left. I told Brennan in Sept. we would actually start trying and see what happens before I start taking any pills that will result in a "John and Kate plus 8" situation. Well still nothing.
I read online that too much caffeine could be a reason for infertility. The caffeine prevents an egg from implanting in the uterus or something. So now I am trying to quit my habit, and be healthier. It is just so hard. I know it will only take a couple days and it wont be so hard, but until then it seems impossible!!!
My name is Megan and I am addicted to Dr. Pepper
Saturday, October 30, 2010
Friday, October 29, 2010
So now I have a blog
Lately I have been reading a lot of my friends blogs, and I am hooked! I have learned things about them that I have never known, and I feel so many emotions while reading. I have decided to try it for myself. I am no writer. I am a bad speller, and really I am not very interesting.
I have gone threw a lot in the last couple years and I guess this is the best way for me to write down what I am feeling and get things out. I am not good at expressing my emotions and I feel like I let things build up. (Although I am sure my husband would disagree!)
I have been married for 8 years now. I was told I was getting married way to young. I didn't listen. I was in love. I moved across the country to Virginia. I didn't really realize what I did until I was there. I missed my family!!! I couldn't believe that I just packed up and left. It was so hard, and although I don't regret it, I wonder what my life would be like if I told Brennan I wanted to stay in Utah. Would we of stayed together??? I remember sitting on the couch one day( in Virginia) when a commercial for the "Little Mermaid" DVD came on the TV. I started bawling. That was me... in my mind! I left my Dad (family) for my prince charming. It was the saddest thing ever! I cried and cried.
Five years later we moved to Arizona to work for Brennan sister in Kingman. Basically it is a small cowboy town. No malls, no Target, not really even any restaurants. Most people that knew of it were just passing threw, and cant believe I would live there. I didn't care. I was so excited to be so much closer to my family! My sister-in-law asked if we wanted to come visit first to see if we liked it, and I said "No." I was leaving VA! We bought a house before we even put ours up for sale. Thankfully our house sold in 11 days and we had multiple offers so we were able to make a nice bit of $$$. Everything seemed to just fall into place.
I met a lot of people in Va that will always be a part of my life. I made friendships, Brennans family was there (which is why we moved there .) I was able to see how much the men and women in the military give up to keep us safe, and free. I saw the families of the soldiers, and all the emotions that go along with it. I learned a lot about myself and what really matters to me.
At the same time, I saw a whole different world that I never knew really existed. I grew up very sheltered. I am grateful for that. I don't think its a bad thing. I did need to see what the real world was like, and maybe that is why I wanted to leave so badly. The world is a scary place. My Parents warm, cozy life they had made for me was safe and happy. While working as a book keeper at a grocery store, one of my co-workers was telling me about the "projects" and how they use shopping carts for BBQs. I had no idea what he was talking about. Projects??? I learned about racism, drugs, abuse, gangs, and a 14 year old that said he was bi-sexual. We heard gun shots at night, and would regularly see prostitutes walking the streets. I felt so out of place. I might sound very naive, but I really was. I had no idea what was really out there. I know its everywhere. Even in my safe little Sandy Utah, but this was just so much, so fast. I was growing up... and that was hard.
I am very grateful for the childhood that I had. I hope to give Payton a childhood that he can look back on and feel warm, and cozy! My parents worked hard to take care of us, and although we didnt have a mansion, or millions of dollars, we never did without. Everyone in our neighborhood new each other for blocks, and everyone watched out and took care of each other when we needed it. We had love. I didn't know that there were children out there that had no love.
I have been very blessed in my life.
I have gone threw a lot in the last couple years and I guess this is the best way for me to write down what I am feeling and get things out. I am not good at expressing my emotions and I feel like I let things build up. (Although I am sure my husband would disagree!)
I have been married for 8 years now. I was told I was getting married way to young. I didn't listen. I was in love. I moved across the country to Virginia. I didn't really realize what I did until I was there. I missed my family!!! I couldn't believe that I just packed up and left. It was so hard, and although I don't regret it, I wonder what my life would be like if I told Brennan I wanted to stay in Utah. Would we of stayed together??? I remember sitting on the couch one day( in Virginia) when a commercial for the "Little Mermaid" DVD came on the TV. I started bawling. That was me... in my mind! I left my Dad (family) for my prince charming. It was the saddest thing ever! I cried and cried.
Five years later we moved to Arizona to work for Brennan sister in Kingman. Basically it is a small cowboy town. No malls, no Target, not really even any restaurants. Most people that knew of it were just passing threw, and cant believe I would live there. I didn't care. I was so excited to be so much closer to my family! My sister-in-law asked if we wanted to come visit first to see if we liked it, and I said "No." I was leaving VA! We bought a house before we even put ours up for sale. Thankfully our house sold in 11 days and we had multiple offers so we were able to make a nice bit of $$$. Everything seemed to just fall into place.
I met a lot of people in Va that will always be a part of my life. I made friendships, Brennans family was there (which is why we moved there .) I was able to see how much the men and women in the military give up to keep us safe, and free. I saw the families of the soldiers, and all the emotions that go along with it. I learned a lot about myself and what really matters to me.
At the same time, I saw a whole different world that I never knew really existed. I grew up very sheltered. I am grateful for that. I don't think its a bad thing. I did need to see what the real world was like, and maybe that is why I wanted to leave so badly. The world is a scary place. My Parents warm, cozy life they had made for me was safe and happy. While working as a book keeper at a grocery store, one of my co-workers was telling me about the "projects" and how they use shopping carts for BBQs. I had no idea what he was talking about. Projects??? I learned about racism, drugs, abuse, gangs, and a 14 year old that said he was bi-sexual. We heard gun shots at night, and would regularly see prostitutes walking the streets. I felt so out of place. I might sound very naive, but I really was. I had no idea what was really out there. I know its everywhere. Even in my safe little Sandy Utah, but this was just so much, so fast. I was growing up... and that was hard.
I am very grateful for the childhood that I had. I hope to give Payton a childhood that he can look back on and feel warm, and cozy! My parents worked hard to take care of us, and although we didnt have a mansion, or millions of dollars, we never did without. Everyone in our neighborhood new each other for blocks, and everyone watched out and took care of each other when we needed it. We had love. I didn't know that there were children out there that had no love.
I have been very blessed in my life.
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